So I know I haven't written in a while. Boy, there have been quite a few times that I've wanted to, but the chaos of our summer schedule has certainly made it hard. More than that, though, is just how crazy the past few months have been emotionally. We've experienced some very high highs and some very hard lows and honestly... I'm tired.
I'm sure I'm not the only one who has been in this place before. We're rejoicing over so many blessings, praising God for how good he is. But we're also hurting from difficult circumstances and unkind people, yet still praising God for how faithful he is. It is amazing to see how much God can grow us and strengthen us through times like this, and yet in the moment I feel anything but strong. I feel exhausted, hardly able to carry on. My heart is bruised and sore yet joyful and hopeful. It's so weird how a person can have such conflicting emotions all at the same time!
I know in times like this I really only have one choice if I want to be healthy emotionally and spiritually. Christ has given us his example of how to love, how to forgive daily, how to persevere under hardship, how to walk in humility and therefore guard our hearts against bitterness.
God is so good. I don't mean that lightly. He is good enough to change us and make us more like him, but he is also good enough to be there every step of the way. When it hurts like crazy and everything in you wants to scream "No, no, no!!" he is there gently guiding you and lovingly holding you. When it seems to be too much, His grace is sufficient for another day. If there is one thing that I know, it's that He is enough.
